"Once I made peace with others, and myself my wings opened up and here I am flying with one of the most amazing and beautiful gifts anyone could ask for"
my story
I feel very blessed that I was born with this gift. I didn’t ask for it, go to school for it, read books about it, or ask other mediums how to use it. One hundred percent of what I go through and bring to the table comes from my spirit guides. If you would like to know how I am able to connect to your loved ones please go to my process page.
Everyone asks me if this is something I have had all my life and the answer is yes. At first, my gift didn’t seem unusual to me. I assumed everyone could hear voices or God. As I grew older, I learned that I was different. I scared people because I knew things no one else knew. When I spoke about it, people said that I freaked them out. I lost friends because of my intuition. I was frustrated and wondered, “why do I keep receiving warnings that come true?” I pushed my gift aside and kept things to myself.
I always felt a presence with me. When I was in the third grade, I remember sitting on the top of the stairs and talking to different voices, this was no imaginary friend. Turns out the voices were different spirits and they were telling me “you will help others”. At the time I did not understand who these voices were.
My first significant, spiritual, experience was in the late 90’s when my grandfather died. Within 2 days of his death he was talking to me, only I didn’t realize it was him. I kept thinking it was God, until he called me “cookie”. It was then that I realized I was talking to the spirit of my grandfather. I remember thinking, how does God have so many voices? Why is he sometimes a woman or a man, why does his laugh change and sometimes sound like that of a child? My grandfather was a very powerful and positive force when I was young. His love for me was unconditional. Our special bond is what allowed us to connect after his death. He was the start of me opening my vessel to help others.
In 2007 my brother died of brain cancer. I knew the day and time he was going to pass away. Right before he passed he told me that he was going to make my life easier, and he was right. Since then my life did become easier than the years prior. I believe he was preparing me for the adventure we would embark on through the next phase of my life, with me here on earth and him on the other side. His death changed me. It really brought to light the wrongs that I had done in my life and I had to surrender to make them right. It made me want to be the best version of myself. I had to release negative energy before I could fully open myself up to be a vessel for others. His death made me realize that life is so short and that we all have a purpose. I was not fulfilling my purpose. And for years following, I kept asking myself “Why am I even here?” I had to change my outlook in order to break old patterns and promote a better life for the new me. Once I made peace with others, and myself my wings opened up and here I am flying with one of the most amazing and beautiful gifts anyone could ask for.
I’ve always gone against the grain and been a black sheep. My thought process is unique and I learn differently than most. I was never this way by choice, it’s just the way I was born, and it has always been a constant and frustrating battle. From 1985 – 2011, I’ve held over 70 jobs, most of the time working two jobs at once. I’ve never had time to breathe. I have a form of dyslexia, I was diagnosed with ADD and I struggle with OCD, which is why I process information the way I do. Information comes in my brain via a different avenue than what we are taught in school. Eventually, I was put on temporary disability for anxiety, panic attacks, stress, and migraines. It forced me for the first time in my life to slow down. It made me take time to not only breathe, but to start to understand what was going on in my mind. Now that I understand my gift, I see I was just trying to function in this world while constantly dealing with the spirit world. This is what it’s like to be in my head daily; I am often in a room with 50-100 people talking at the same time, with a big screen TV blaring, a radio playing, all while I browse the Internet with the telephone ringing off the hook. There has always been constant static in my head now I know why.
The final turning point for me was at an appointment with my therapist, I walked into her office and before I even sat down I said, “There’s a man in the corner, late sixties, early seventies”. I reassured her that I knew it sounded crazy, knowing I was the only one who could see him. It turned out the spirit was my therapist’s uncle who had passed away earlier that day. I sat down and explained to her what I was being told and shown. I was very specific and exact. My therapist was confirming and validating information as I gave it. To this day, the whole experience seems surreal. This was the epiphany that led me to explore my wonderful and amazing gifts. It was the right place, the right time, on the right day, and it was astounding. It was in my face and I couldn’t ignore it anymore. My grandfather and brother are always by my side and help to make up my amazing posse of spirit guides.
“It’s not up to you what you learn but whether you learn through joy or pain” This is a quote taken from the book, A Course In Miracles, which for me is very relevant. I learned through pain; and from this comes my ability to understand others pain and be able to have compassion for them on a deeper level. It’s made me truly empathetic and able to relate well to others. I am a genuine person, my life experiences have taught me to have an amazing sense of humor, integrity, and the ability to help others without expecting anything in return.
My drive to help others has never wavered. I have always been a giver even when I had nothing to give. I help with charity events, hands on activities, and raise donations for those in need. I have always said if I could get paid to help others that would be my dream job. It’s amazing to realize that the one thing I was wishing for the most has been with me this entire time. I was the one that needed to give myself the chance to slow down and accept what has scared me for years. Trying to explain my gift has been challenging. I feel relieved now that I am putting myself out there. It is a feeling I can’t quite explain because it is that wonderful. I am finally able to be true to myself.
I’m ok with people who don’t understand all of this because I don’t entirely understand it myself. I do what I am told and say what’s being said - that’s all. I get clues from what spirits show or tell me and I interpret them, then it’s my client’s job to think outside the box and figure out what it all means. We are then able to piece the story together. I always refer to this as Spirit Charades. Clients tell me that after a reading, they are still putting clues together for weeks. Some say the experience has touched their lives and promoted healing, more than they could have ever imagined. They say they feel like they’ve known me forever, which is one of the biggest compliments anyone could ever give me.
I am so grateful and appreciative to all of you who have taken the time to read my story. This journey hasn’t been easy for me. The reason I share so much is because I want people to understand that my abilities did not develop over night. I am constantly evolving and learning as I go. I look forward to using my gift to help people understand that their loved ones, Ancestors, Spirit guides and Angels from above are often with them.
Everyone asks me if this is something I have had all my life and the answer is yes. At first, my gift didn’t seem unusual to me. I assumed everyone could hear voices or God. As I grew older, I learned that I was different. I scared people because I knew things no one else knew. When I spoke about it, people said that I freaked them out. I lost friends because of my intuition. I was frustrated and wondered, “why do I keep receiving warnings that come true?” I pushed my gift aside and kept things to myself.
I always felt a presence with me. When I was in the third grade, I remember sitting on the top of the stairs and talking to different voices, this was no imaginary friend. Turns out the voices were different spirits and they were telling me “you will help others”. At the time I did not understand who these voices were.
My first significant, spiritual, experience was in the late 90’s when my grandfather died. Within 2 days of his death he was talking to me, only I didn’t realize it was him. I kept thinking it was God, until he called me “cookie”. It was then that I realized I was talking to the spirit of my grandfather. I remember thinking, how does God have so many voices? Why is he sometimes a woman or a man, why does his laugh change and sometimes sound like that of a child? My grandfather was a very powerful and positive force when I was young. His love for me was unconditional. Our special bond is what allowed us to connect after his death. He was the start of me opening my vessel to help others.
In 2007 my brother died of brain cancer. I knew the day and time he was going to pass away. Right before he passed he told me that he was going to make my life easier, and he was right. Since then my life did become easier than the years prior. I believe he was preparing me for the adventure we would embark on through the next phase of my life, with me here on earth and him on the other side. His death changed me. It really brought to light the wrongs that I had done in my life and I had to surrender to make them right. It made me want to be the best version of myself. I had to release negative energy before I could fully open myself up to be a vessel for others. His death made me realize that life is so short and that we all have a purpose. I was not fulfilling my purpose. And for years following, I kept asking myself “Why am I even here?” I had to change my outlook in order to break old patterns and promote a better life for the new me. Once I made peace with others, and myself my wings opened up and here I am flying with one of the most amazing and beautiful gifts anyone could ask for.
I’ve always gone against the grain and been a black sheep. My thought process is unique and I learn differently than most. I was never this way by choice, it’s just the way I was born, and it has always been a constant and frustrating battle. From 1985 – 2011, I’ve held over 70 jobs, most of the time working two jobs at once. I’ve never had time to breathe. I have a form of dyslexia, I was diagnosed with ADD and I struggle with OCD, which is why I process information the way I do. Information comes in my brain via a different avenue than what we are taught in school. Eventually, I was put on temporary disability for anxiety, panic attacks, stress, and migraines. It forced me for the first time in my life to slow down. It made me take time to not only breathe, but to start to understand what was going on in my mind. Now that I understand my gift, I see I was just trying to function in this world while constantly dealing with the spirit world. This is what it’s like to be in my head daily; I am often in a room with 50-100 people talking at the same time, with a big screen TV blaring, a radio playing, all while I browse the Internet with the telephone ringing off the hook. There has always been constant static in my head now I know why.
The final turning point for me was at an appointment with my therapist, I walked into her office and before I even sat down I said, “There’s a man in the corner, late sixties, early seventies”. I reassured her that I knew it sounded crazy, knowing I was the only one who could see him. It turned out the spirit was my therapist’s uncle who had passed away earlier that day. I sat down and explained to her what I was being told and shown. I was very specific and exact. My therapist was confirming and validating information as I gave it. To this day, the whole experience seems surreal. This was the epiphany that led me to explore my wonderful and amazing gifts. It was the right place, the right time, on the right day, and it was astounding. It was in my face and I couldn’t ignore it anymore. My grandfather and brother are always by my side and help to make up my amazing posse of spirit guides.
“It’s not up to you what you learn but whether you learn through joy or pain” This is a quote taken from the book, A Course In Miracles, which for me is very relevant. I learned through pain; and from this comes my ability to understand others pain and be able to have compassion for them on a deeper level. It’s made me truly empathetic and able to relate well to others. I am a genuine person, my life experiences have taught me to have an amazing sense of humor, integrity, and the ability to help others without expecting anything in return.
My drive to help others has never wavered. I have always been a giver even when I had nothing to give. I help with charity events, hands on activities, and raise donations for those in need. I have always said if I could get paid to help others that would be my dream job. It’s amazing to realize that the one thing I was wishing for the most has been with me this entire time. I was the one that needed to give myself the chance to slow down and accept what has scared me for years. Trying to explain my gift has been challenging. I feel relieved now that I am putting myself out there. It is a feeling I can’t quite explain because it is that wonderful. I am finally able to be true to myself.
I’m ok with people who don’t understand all of this because I don’t entirely understand it myself. I do what I am told and say what’s being said - that’s all. I get clues from what spirits show or tell me and I interpret them, then it’s my client’s job to think outside the box and figure out what it all means. We are then able to piece the story together. I always refer to this as Spirit Charades. Clients tell me that after a reading, they are still putting clues together for weeks. Some say the experience has touched their lives and promoted healing, more than they could have ever imagined. They say they feel like they’ve known me forever, which is one of the biggest compliments anyone could ever give me.
I am so grateful and appreciative to all of you who have taken the time to read my story. This journey hasn’t been easy for me. The reason I share so much is because I want people to understand that my abilities did not develop over night. I am constantly evolving and learning as I go. I look forward to using my gift to help people understand that their loved ones, Ancestors, Spirit guides and Angels from above are often with them.
